A few weeks ago my ther****t diagnosed me Bipolar 2. Makes sense to me, I’m always low and rarely feel good. In May my unemployment ended because my previous employers are mega assholes. So now I have zero income and bills that need paying and I can’t seem to get hired anywhere. A few days ago my boyfriend broke up with me. Literally everything sucks in my life right now. I can’t handle it. I want to admit myself to the psych ward because I need a reset and maybe it will help. Maybe it won’t. No clue. If ANYONE wants to help with finances, please, I’m begging you, help. I would seriously appr… Pročitajte više

This will not me as erotic as the past 2 writings. I am angry. I am disappointed in our court system and unemployment office. I was fired from my job in December. They claim I had quit. When they emailed me telling me they accept my resignation I replied that I had not resigned and asked if they were firing me to which they replied yes. In January the DOL conducted a fact finding mission and ruled that I was indeed fired and were to receive unemployment benefits. My former employer appealed the decision. And we had a court hearing over the phone with a judge. Now, the judge overturned the une… Pročitajte više

I lay in bed as though still in a dream as the sun fills the room. I feel your soft breathing As you lie still asleep behind me, holding me close, your cock soft against me as you sleep so peacefully. I bury my head against your arms. So warm. So strong. I begin to drift back to sleep as I move myself closer to you, comforted in this moment. I feel a pulse in your soft cock as my thigh brushes it. Then I begin to dream. When next I wake I feel your kisses on the back of my neck. Your cock growing harder now with each touch of your lips. You press into me and I smile with the knowledge you want… Pročitajte više

As you go without power now, I imagine us together trying to fill the silence and pass the time. I draw you near to me and lay you in bed with me. You hold me from behind and I feel your cock grow harder by the moment and you hold me tightly and pull me closer. I turn to face you and kiss my boy so tenderly and deeply with my hands winding in your thick black curls. I feel you hard against my thigh and grow wet as my pussy throbs for it inside me. You kiss my neck as you turn me back around so your cock pokes at my ass. As you grab my hair with your sting fingers I feel your hard cock between… Pročitajte više

Last week I tried something new. I allowed someone to spank me. Hand, belt, crop, paddles. Somehow in the pain it was such a turn on, making me wet and want more. The first time he kept asking if I was ok, I was fine, he went easy on me but I wanted more and I think he was a bit surprised by what I could take. The second time was a different guy, he was more heavy handed and it hurt more. He asked if I needed a break but I just kept taking it. It stung every time he hit my bare ass. Hurt more and more each time. I squirmed as he had my wrists bound but loved every second of the pain. I can… Pročitajte više

For the past many years, I have pushed people a at. Pushed away everyone for fear of being hurt again. Finally I decided to not push away, and now I have a broken heart. How can my heart feel so broken over someone I have only been speaking to for a week and haven't met in person? It feels like so much longer, like a lifetime. He doesn't want to meet for fear of how it will make us feel when he moves away. He's moving because his ex and daughter are moving. He has nothing to keep him here. I told him I understand, but I still want to meet him. It hurts more for me having never had the chance.… Pročitajte više

So, this post has nothing to do with anything related to sex. This post is a shameful self promotion post! In April I am taking a trip to England (no, I will not meet with anyone while there, so don't even suggest it) To help raise funds I am posting my Etsy shop on here. Share it, buy from it. Or just donate money because you want to help a girl out. https://www.paypal.me/MountainLilyDesign https://www.etsy.com/shop/MountainLilyDesign Thanks guys, I appreciate it. I promise I'll make you all hot and hard soon. The holidays were rough on me, but I'm starting to get horny again.… Pročitajte više

If we were friends on here and now aren't, I'm sorry. I unfriended many people. Either because we don't chat any more or I forgot who you were (because we don't chat) I'm in a weird place, and when I get in this state I tend to purge things and friends on sex sites are one of the places I purge... I am better now than my last blog post, not super though. But taking my anxiety medication has helped. I won't be in the site too much I've the next few weeks. I have the holidays and house renovations to work on. Not big renovations, but I need to finish reflooring my damned living room tha… Pročitajte više

Lucky you, you're getting to read about the shit going on in my head right now. Hm, maybe that's not as lucky as it seems... Sorry. But you're committed now. Have you ever felt so lost or frustrated that you didn't know what to do? All you wanted to do was scream or cry or throw something? But doing those things doesn't make things better. And thinking about what can be done to fix things isn't helping because, let's face it, you don't even know what needs to be fixed. That's where I am right now. I'm stuck, lost, frustrated and beyond stressed out. Sex helps me feel more relaxed and normal… Pročitajte više

Well, I did it. I used a strap-on for the first time. It was ok. It wasn't a comfortable position or angle that I was in. The guy turned out to be an asshole. He's bi, and after cumming in my ass and licking it out he begged me to find another guy to cum in my ass so he could lick it out. So I did. Guy number 2 arrives after 20 minutes of guy number 1 saying he isn't invited and we can't do it there anymore. Guy number 2 comes in, no problem. He started fingering and licking my pussy and ass, half way through guy number 1 says we can keep doing it but we have to do it somewhere else because… Pročitajte više

I know, I kinda skipped week 5.... whatever It's been so busy with the damned holidays!! But has anyone else noticed how damned dirty Thanksgiving is?!? I didn't get the stuffing and gravy I wanted... and boy oh boy do I need to be stuffed!! And despite all the guys I have wanting my personal type of gravy, I can't seem to find anyone to stuff me!! Even the guys I make plans with never reply to me and leave me high and dry! I had a threesome planned and nope, neither guy replied to me. I was so fucking pissed off! So now I'm irritated and frustrated and don't believe anyone when th… Pročitajte više

4 weeks here now. Wow. I've chatted with assholes and douche bags and also chatted with cool guys I'd love to meet. This past week was super busy for me with my work and family so it seems as though I was ignoring some of you. One guy even blocked me because I didn't have a chance to chat with him... can't deal with assholes like that. Guess what boys, the world doesn't revolve around you! Also discovered I kinda like playing mommy. Or so far at least like being referred to as mommy. Guess we will have to see how it feels in real life. But I want to punish a bad little boy and spank… Pročitajte više

Dumb mother fucking asshole shithead douche bags! Listen up boys, if you send a message to a girl and she doesn't reply, many times it's because she didn't get the message! I reply to everyone! Technology is flawed, sometimes KIK says the message was read when it actually wasn't received at all. Instead of acting like a whiny little pussy and saying you're no longer interested, why not take a minute and ask the girl if everything is ok. Because you know what? We all have lives! Things happen in our lives and we don't always reply to your fucking messages! And especially after you d… Pročitajte više

Each day I come on here (it's like an addiction, I swear) and I have new messages! Some are complimentary, some are looking to chat, some guys tell me how hard they are and want someone to watch them. I'm not an asshole, so I usually reply to them all. Usually saying thanks or no thank you (I don't always like watching a guy jerk off on cam). I end up chatting with some. Then there's all the invites! Guys, listen, you have to chat with me before I accept your invite. And not just once so I will accept. This is a porm site yes, but all my pics and videos are available if you're not a friend… Pročitajte više

Today is the end of my second week on this site. I have learned a few more things. 1. Some of you guys have to learn to redirect people. Sure, this is a poen site, but you can still be respectful. Sometimes a kind word goes farther in life than anything else. 2. Guys are all just horny as fuck! I mean, I already knew this, but wow! 3. Sometimes the sweetest people live too damned far away. Makes me sad knowing some of you are so far when all I want is to meet you. 4. We all need someone to talk to. Even if it's just a stranger in a porn site. An open ear and kind words make me s… Pročitajte više

What I have learned on this site, week 1. Chicks are bitches!! Just because a guy doesn't meet your "requirements" is no reason to be a rude ass bitch! Guys are horny! Yeah, duh right? I mean, wow! Some guys like being humiliated, who knew? I mean, yeah, some have super tiny cocks, but why focus on that? I never thought of myself as sexy or desirable. Sure, I have sex, I have a pussy, any cock will stick itself into just about any pussy... But sexy, never... You guys have boosted my self esteem a bit on here. I still don't think I'm sexy as some of you say. But thanks! Y… Pročitajte više

Well, look at this, there's a blog feature. When did it become cool to blog about everything?! If you're reading this, then you actually took the time to look deep into my profile. I joined this site on a recommendation from a friend, i wanted to watch people fuck. There's lost of that hear so that makes me happy. I've had a few orgasms from watching already and just joined a couple of days ago. I have chosen to remain relatively anonymous and not post much of my face. If there are more pics showing my face there will be a mask involved as well. Just do me a favor, don't call m… Pročitajte više